Friday, April 3, 2009

Lupron Day 3 and my world falls apart

Lupron Day three. On Day 2 we found out what we owe in taxes. Not a good day. I've never seen so many zeros in my life. I'm not

Day three? Glass door on my oven shattered. And my cleaning lady (yes, the fired one) lied about it.

Yeah.

And I'm on Lupron.

And I had a complete, total, utter, nervous breakdown.

God bless my husband for not saying, "Maybe now's not the time for IVF."

Because that? Would have broken me.

The first one of you to say that maybe now's not the time? Gets banned for life. Yes I'm stressed. Cancelling this cycle? Would kill me.

14 comments:

Lisa R said...

Sorry you're having such a crummy week- or month- ummm, year? When things get tough just look around you though at your four beautiful, healthy kids and loving husband (and think about all of your adoring fans/friends!) and try to remind yourself what is good in life :)

Jen said...

i'm so so so sorry. why does everything have to fall apart at once??? i SO know that feeling. i remember reading a quote several months ago that said, "life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning to dance in the rain." and i remember thinking - well, we should be doing LOTS of dancing around here, then!!! many (((hugs))). hope day 4 is better.

Meghan said...

I say you take out any Lupron induced rage on that cleaning lady. What a piece of work!

Hoping things turn around for you

Anonymous said...

OH NO! This is not the time for broken ovens and lying house keepers! That is what its not time for! Hugs, this too shall pass!

nishkanu said...

Don't use how you feel on Lupron to measure your sanity. Otherwise we would all be at the funny farm, and no one would ever be able to cycle because now would never be "the time."

barrenisthenewblack said...

It is the time for IVF. Frankly, if you can hold it together enough on Lupron to make it to transfer, you earn the resulting children. It's like some sort of dysfunctional reality fertility show. I'm sorry you're dealing with suckiness right now. I'll email you. Miss you!

battynurse said...

How about if I say hang in there and I hope it gets better? I do hope it does. No one should have to deal with issues like that and Lupron.

Beth said...

Oh, Karen, I'm thinking of you. When it rains, it pours (I'm sorry you're going through all of this)!

I'm sure you will have beautiful Seders. Looking forward to seeing photos of your 3 gorgeous toddlers eating Matzah (and your adorable J-Man, too)!

By the way, can you take photos on Pesach (I should know this)?!?

Anonymous said...

I hope that the crap stops.

I wouldn't cancel a cycle over those things - that is life. There is always going to be shit that comes up. You handle life better than most.

chicklet said...

I think you'd owe what you owe regardles, so you just roll with the shite coming your way and deal with that later. Right now's the time for your next round which is more important than balancing the chequebook at this very moment. You can balance it later. F* the government:-)

tovarena said...

OMG! So sorry to hear all the "excitement" going on in your life. And all that on top of pesach preps, too! I continue to be in awe of you that when faced with all that you DON'T melt down.
Hopefully this week is better than last. And hopefully you'll get some rest over yom tov? Are y'all doing big sedarim? Or heading out? (My DH thinks I'm nuts for turning down invites because it's too late a night for the kids.)

Have a chag kosher v'sameach!

Kitty said...

There's never a good time for ivf and I think the occasional nervous breakdown is good. It tends to be followed with clarity.
Oh, and your husband seems to be a wise, wise man.

amber said...

I'm so sorry everything is crazy-go-nuts right now. You're in my thoughts.

Malky B. said...

If it's any comfort to you my cleaning lady seems to have a habit of breaking things. It's really starting to get on my nerves. I like her alot otherwise so I gave her a talk to try to be more careful. Hope it works.